Melbourne Road Tripping!

Awesome fun we had...

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Meh...Mm day. Boringgg...
Do you think pple look diff as they grow older?
Act differently...
wana be different?

At this pt in time,
i just wana throw all the old things away.
Quit playing wow,
delete my old hp number, move house...
Just be different..


My fren thinks i'm having a mid life crisis.
Lol, and maybe i am.
if i aint with you, maybe things would be so much different.

you realized you were in love...


1. when you hate the person.
2. when you feel suffocated if there are questions u wan answers to, but would never ask.
3. when you think of spending the rest of your life with that person.
4. when time and time again after being hurt, u come back for more.



~until now. i still think of you.
PS. forgive me.

mm...summer's quickly approaching, and it feels like singapore all over again. Time's like these i wish i was in singapore, since the weather's the same, the food tastes bland and overtly expensive...wat else is there here i would greatly miss?

prob my friends if it boils down to it, but...as jer said, what friends?

lol...addicted to wow, just because its a really neat game with 3D graphics...actually i'm more into it for the fact that it makes u think your useful once in a while.

might sound lame but...being able to help 39 other people along, hell...y not.
also, nubz thinks that it'ii be for the better if i participate more in the raids.
but...on a personal note, its not top on my priority list.

Now, i'm lvling my druid bear/cat/seal otter form...cute though....

been raving to get out abit more for the fresh air and get some exercise done, cos my back's acting up again. but...if i cant even go out for lunch at the office, what makes me think that i would willingly sacrifice my time to get out? haha....

still, had a great walk the other day through the park...rather all by my lonesome self. felt great though...wana go trekking again...

got off the tram even though, obviously the tiks valid til 2am... just walked home from there on.

me...in the office.... zzz...

bugger...

fell down the other day.
not in a hilarious way, but was in a pretty good mood cos my colleague said i did a pretty good job coping at work. (everyone's out of country cept for me and him)...
But yea...i tripped and fell...
hurt my elbow...


had 1-2 stitches cos it kinda...went pwat!
but...other wise, its mostly skin loss which is pretty decent...

at least...at the end of it, i'm still fine and standing.

went straight back to work after this. -_- just like my first day of work, where i fell of my bike n broke my toothie~....

another time another day...

The Old Mm: aging with time...

Should be more matured now...but. Lmao~

Been playing WoW for a bit... addiction level has moderated.
Even now, Enz plays for me...not that i have anything agst playing, but i guess having time for myself is good.



Eyeballed:
pple generally like to read about themselves.

For the better or for the worse, a comment, an insult...
the thought of being noticed, desired, wanted.

curiously, the days been passing rapidly.

for now, the only uncertainty would be the pending decisions:

1. decision to return to lala land. so familar, yet so foreign- could vaguely remember the names of buildings, places, areas...a place i spent 19 years of my life in...

2. PR pending, with an english exam heading up- need an average of 7/10...well, its not going to be a breeze but as far as i'm concerned, hopefully things will be smoothly overcomed.

3. Jobs- journalism, advertising, graphic design... courses to be taken, paths to be made...
unsure at this pt where exactly i would be headed, but at least i believe this would be the field my interest lies...

4. Music- songwriting has come to a halting stop. full-stopped. Our band has crumpled due to the timing, differences and well, money issues (didnt want to argue bout money, its all yours seriously. its more for the fun...and we were happy once...fung, kwan and mike, i'm cool with it. no need to bitch bout each other behind... truthfully, that email made we wonder whats the focus of it all, so i'm out. ^^)

5. Lifestyle changes - been here 5 years? has it really been that long?... and grateful for the wonderful frenz i've had, made and kept. friends whom i have lost due to them graduating, leaving, returning...and friends to come, make, befriend...


Choices. isnt it a bitch of a decision?

Concerns. Many many many.

You. For now there's only one.

Gaming. FTW.

Melbourne. Cold Hot Cold.

Time. Tight. undesireable. wasteful.

Me. Dreamer. Unpractical. Bite me.

everything comes down to 1 week.

1 week for an answer...
1 week to figure out about cat...
1 week to my birthday...
1 week to find out who/ what i really wan...
1 week to forget about you...




~pity like a fool, when the fool cant see the road ahead...

another year fleetingly past...
now time for the end of the financial year...and the end of our bz period here.

QA administrator...thats what my present job title entitles.
until now, i wonder if this scope and industry suits me or not.
still my interest lies in media and marketing, as well as HR/ PR.

looking back on the 4half years i wilted my time over here...it hasnt been a breeze emotionally but a thoroughly fabulous experience.
In david's words...AweEEeSome...

got to meet the most fantastic people...made life long friends whom i hold in great respect. You guys are certainly the strongest bunch i have ever met.

Sometimes i wonder, if i'm just over sensitive in stuff. trying my best to lighten up, and for peeps who knew me when i was a kiddie...you would go, woh...she's really not as sulky, not as depressing, not as pouty as i rem her to be...

i've learnt several lessons in life:

1. one cannot live without love, or carry on without...you can try to make it come back but there is a limit.
2. one must adapt to circumstances...if they change, go with the flow and survive the best you can.
3. even when things are down, there are always 2 hopes you can fall back on. your faith in god, and your faith in yourself.
4. True love comes when you least expect it...really.

thinking of my plans and steps for the future.
mom and dad feels i should stay here in melb, but i know deep in my heart that would be the most logical choice.
however, i desire to be back in sg, start a career and hopefully get into my much desired media and com field...
to be able to write freely...although that might not be true, would be the greatest thing that could happen to me. whether i get allowance or a salary it doesnt matter.

anyway, andry should be visiting sooN! ...that little piggy has flown to sydney for the longest time and forgotten bout his da jie. You whom i've spent countless time counselling...hope your doing better my little bro.

and...been on a shopping spree... which is totally bad. considering that i dont really consider whether its a need... but got my lovely loopies again. heidi picked them out for me. she's da gf of a close fren of mine...

wish i was back in sg ...then i can get to drink all the sugar cane juice and eat all the sambal sting ray iwan...instead of asking someone to eat for me...
Jealous >.<

The Wanderful Princess Mm: Cruzied Mean-andering Full of a Womb-man


things that come naturally where others don't....

Mm.

A loving name coined by some of my closest friends.
but frens do drift, and to you guys I've outlived my importance for now....

Things even you never knew bout Mm... aka "the princess is speaking":

1. I get bored easily...almost ADD in nature...."sorry wat did you say again"?

2. Frends made are frends to keep...even if we just met, the moment we smiled, we were meant to be.

3. My bestie, is my closest fren not by default but becos you have become the most impt person in my life despite the distance and not talking to you a year on end...

4. Feelings.... fuelled solely on them. Driven and motivated in many ways.

5. Secret kleptomanic. tiny little glitter stuff thats for the birds...
- stole as a kiddy frm the bookstore...never caught...
-like shiny things...but not too shiny...
-horder...never give up little stuff that means nothing to anyone, but everything to me.

6. Generally on a happy spree...living day by day. Dislike being nagged at, but would try to please.

7. Wants a dog but falling in love with kitty... a lover for animals. (NOT insects)
- when young was bitten on the face by a cat, lied to mom that it was a fall...had to undergo a life-changing butt injecting experience.
- bitten by my bro's pet silky on the 3rd finger.... up yours Maxie!

8. Just want to travel and explore places with beautiful sceneries... climb, shimmey, laugh and roll....watever it takes.
- where I met my bf. On a mountain, on the way down (falling down), when a guy caught my hand (dont be mistaken) and another imp of a man screamed "DAMN IT! let her go!!...
-had the greatest of laughs when there was ABSOLUTELY nothing but barren sand and billowing puffed up clouds that promised never to rain...
-watched a kanga jump and bashed into a fren's car... and her little joey flung out and smashed to the grd. both died...not instantly, but eventually.

9. Spontaneous and crazed....
- can pack in under a few hrs...but a perpetual mess. Anytime anywhere...just pack and go.


10. New Things...Dislike redundant things... calculation, starring at numbers, repetitive stuff...
- want to be a writer, creative drawer, a what-not fashion crazed guru (eccentric not mainstream), music composer F-T...
-attracted to colour and sound...anything brilliant and vibrant. Just like a magpie is to silver...


= Overall...very uninteresting but will do anything for ya, if your impt!

the frog in hot water theory...

cooking in boiling hot water, with the chance of survival at 99%

cooking in cold - warm- hot- boiling water, with the chance of survival at 1%.

= 100%

Death comes swiftly especially when you dont notice the factors that would tell you otherwise.


Wish list:

- watching Final destination 3
- getting more mp3 that i like
- watching ice age 2
- noeing that the people who are good to me are looked after
-see my mommie soon
- craves for hokkien noodles NYJC style!
- chilli ikan billis fried with peanuts from our lovely hanni
- get well quick (nearly fainted this morning...bad bad bad)
-get off flu medicine quick. making me feel wozzy.
- play my gigs without band squabbles. music.
- work getting better. no more measuring of garments! NO MORE!
- bro getting out of school (finally) and getting a job
- saving up for my masters in commerce
-getting into my masters. H2b av, but...
- finding out whether i need a letter from my employer to prove the 1 year for masters
- making more friends who would be there for me.
- renewing my faith. sorry...
- reading the bible from cover to end, and rem words of wisdom
- get my dream dress...the one i saw was torn. damn it.
-work out to be healthier. will get out of the woozy feeling
- no more OT at work... (like real)
- go back sg and get into satchi and satchi -_-


Reality Check:

* good job and good colleagues (except for the ocassional raised voices and pushing of excuses)
* healthy as in never been to a hospital, except to be part of staff
*god-blessed...how many pple do you noe can fall off the bike from 1.6m and not be impaled or break a hand? (only a broken tooth and really brusied hand)
*played my gig for as long as i could without succumbing to wat tears a group up...
*getting a decent lifestyle while waiting for PR
*living comfortably in my little nest


wat else can i ask for? maybe a wish list is a want list that you just rattle on about.
totally unnecessary.
yet... so temptingly desireable.

wat do i desire?

time passes when your having fun...
been the most relaxed, uncaring months these days...

work has sped up and i have coped, survived and lived to tell the tales of ghosts and gales...

now, to get back on the highway.
packed my bags and out i'ii go....

back to the sunny isles of singapore.
wish i could go... M... miss you babe...

dunno how fast time flies... ya still alwaz here in my mind ah.
so dun worry, i'm not too far, if there's any prob, you could alwas call me.
missing singapore terribly, but i seem to have fallen for melbourne too.

The luxury of being all alone, and yet not alone.
meeting friends and un-meeting friends whom i have not seen in the longest time.
loving to hate life that seems marvellously horrid at first...
all working out in the end for the best.

Gorgeous as the days might be,
sometimes being a push over is horrible.
getting remarks like, your tooOOoo naive...
how can you believe that!?...

hope hope hope hope that things would change.
better job prospects, if not learn more from my job.



Love life, live life. choose life.

Expectations...
Fulfilment...
the future...

the easter camp came and went as quick as the easter bunny would have hidden his eggs.

day 1:

Had an easter egg given to me, that was boiled and soaked (i believe) in colored egg (its a real egg), where being the hungry me who craved for food esp when i wake... i ate it, and ended up with blue fingers, a blue mouth, a blue tongue, and blue intestines....

Proceeded on in the bus (sat alone...til i dragged lio and cal over) happily lalala-ing~ away.
Armed with a guitar (used to belong to me, but cal decided he wanted to keep it, as he felt a connection ...talk bout inanimate relationships...) and limited scores, we sang and annoyed the driver to no end.

Reached the camp site, and was thrusted into an unfamiliar yet common surrounding, which...come to think of it, would be the 4-5 time in just over 3 years.

Queued up and waited for our names to be called, although the limit they set was from A-F and N-Z. (wat the...i'm an M)... shuffled and pushed from one queue to another...until we were registered!

Had the luxury of a 4 bunk room, instead of the 20-20-20 rooms with 3 by 3 bathrooms...i felt i was in heaven....

Left the campsite briefly, (ONLY due to circumstances, as we were warned in our "camp passports" that it was STRICTLY frowned upon if you went out of camp, or into the sea... which had many many many jellyfish....talk bout swimming with the enemy...)

DAY2:

activities started!
games and more games....
it was emaculately fun ^-^ esp when we did our cheers, right guys???!!

1. 2. 3.

YOUR SO FAT!
SO WAT?
SO FAT?
SO WAT?
SOOOOOSOOOOOO oFATTTT!!!

* note we're not being spastic, but...our team was called Sophat square.


DAY 3-4: simple summary...

lots of praise and worship lots of programs lots of food lots of washing up lots of packing lots of friends....

but, i kind of fell into a slumber-like state, feeling almost depressed.
Maybe cos i knew everyone was leaving and hated to part with friends.
Maybe cos what i initially set out to established was some how lost along the way.


Yet, i know that even if my faith doesnt hold, even if i occasionally stray far far far away...
he would love me unconditionally, as i love him too.

In my father's name. I hold you in my praises.

with life comes challenges,
with challenges comes intent.
with intent comes love,
with love comes devotion.

Just back from my easter camp trip and well, i'm still tripping on under-sleep and over-eating.
For once, a camp that had plentiful food and much much more. thanks to my CG who had an endless supply of food.

One thing i've gained during that time is a little verse...

Psalm 28:

"to you, O lord, I call;
my rock be not deaf to me,
lest , if you be silent to me,
i become like those who go down the pit.
....

Blessed be the lord!...my strength and shield;
in him my heart trusts, and i am helped;
my heart exults,
and with my song i give thanks to him."

been a long and crazy date. with flu and fever and many unidentified problem.
and it ended with a big bang.
Fell down smack flat. broke my tooth in half, scratched my face, and have a swollen thumb the size of a ping pong ball. No jokes there.
Swollen is the joint that got bitten by the dry earth.
Cracked and gone is the tooth that tried to be as one with this earth.
Still in tact but not going anywhere is the brain that could have been smashed...

sometimes i wonder if i'm lucky or plainly unlucky.
but the thing i noe is that i thanked god that nothing else went wrong.
puzzles me too.
but my faith is growing.
for all i've done wrong, prob this is like a payment of kind.
to atone for whatever i've done, will do and have to do in future.


the song that flooded my mind as i got on my fateful bike on the way backwith a swollen hand...
~DooO DDooo DOoo DOooo...Be Happy...

Stuck in a dead job, but at least there's friends to be reckon.
For such a big retail store, you would wonder why they would only have, get this, 11 recovery staff for the whole entire store.
Had andy ask us yesterday, if your free help out at toys. yar. right. we did eventually, without trying to dodge behind walls, the usual acts of reluctant workers.

Maybe I'm getting too old really. All my colleagues are either married, getting there or gay. On a serious note, their all my age.

Recommended age of marriage when i was 10: 26
Recommended age of marriage in my mind: 28-30.
Recommended age to have kids:30-32.
Being forced to stay home as a housewife: Never
Killing my husband for straying while i'm having a kid: Priceless

Something's money come buy, for others...they come with a tag which you put on it after the items sold.

Expandable value i call it.

Been a long while since i last blog.
It amazes me that my english hasnt depreciated with value, as did my life value.
Hopefully i get the job on wed as the billigual writer. although i remain highly concern at the fact that my chinese is crap and i cant write chinese without the software njstar.


Problem 1 to cross: stop being a prissy about things. People if they want to publish their nude photos are free to do that. only thing they should be worried, to catch a cold, stalkers and errie stuff that go BUMP in the night.
They would not have a care about: Bad reputation as any reputation is a good one. People who bad mouth them, as if they were ever spoke of only goes to show that people have thought and considered them prior to that.

On another note, my honey's gone back to brissy...
Why why why didnt you consider a defacto w me? haha. arent you the popular one.
But, like we've said, it was a dog year when we met (12 years old) and a dog year once again (24years).
Time flies when you've having fun.
Had cookouts at my place and seriously seriously YUmmy food.
Nasi Lemak, Pineapple rice, bak kut teh...wat cant this woman cook.

****

Life at this point seems : Bleak
Mood: Tired and alittle uncompassionate, but trying.

Btw, princess and the pauper (piper) are Sooo Cute!
am i a sucker for animals...
Will load pictures soon.

SPGs and women who are too full of themselves.
maybe its just me, i find this alittle over the top sometimes.
If you are articulate, beautiful, and able to attract, why do you use this against yourself?
1. Women tend to act the part of the hurt and down party, using tears as weapons (we noe that, cos i've been there, although it was more of genuine hurt and to get away from whatever was hurting me). But i've known at least on a subconscious level, tears are effective.
2. Why get any guy when you can choose the guy you want? (but then again, if you have the looks, the guys flocking to you would be a different sort, making it a different choice). Note, Xiao Xue, the SPG girl and Dawn Yeo. (although i dont find it wrong to better yourself, looks or attitude wise, or am i a self-righteous B*****, but maybe just maybe there are better ways to dealing with your stuff?)

then again. i'm not in too much of a league to be talking about these.

Sometimes it makes me wonder, superficially goes hand in hand with attention and popularity.
Even when i least feel like, I would try to attempt at making my friend feel comfy by talking (or maybe i'm annoying) cos my rationale remains, if that can make them smile. Y not?

Oh yar. rent's due on monday.

fell....into a thorn bush. not sure if its poisonous or not but my wounds are swollen and painful.
hate....liars and ex-lovers.
reprise....myself for being silly and naive in many many many thing.
love....the people who stay by myside when i'm all alone.
unable....to stand on my two feet when everything seem too bleary
strength.....with devotion to what i strongly believe in
forgive....me father, for i've not been there
here....if you can see me

Life goes on and on and on. Cyclical and redundant. gotten myself into alot of mess.
maybe things will clear up soon.
spending money faster then i can earn it.
^-^
lots of Lovely clothes.
gotten into that O' so feminine mode.

Love those dresses that has laces and are corset like.
Looking after my friend's pup and baby kitten.

New Year Resolution:
to not give up so easily over matters i hold close to heart
to be happy all and by myself
to make more friends -_- as its habitual for me to shy away.
to speak up when i'm not happy -_- another big obstacle.

LAstly! to love all the things that make me happy!! my art, jewellery-making, cakes....
OOoOHhhh there's cheese cake in the fridge...
Home-made ^-^