realized i've upkept this blog for 4 years. 2002-2005. and its still going.
little wonder why some people think i dun have much of a life.
but hey, i'm trying to enjoy the little things.
like coffee on a short stroll to no where.
like a lie down at the nearby carlton park just because i can. reading and lazing. bumming and listening.
little things in life that are so enjoyable.
yet there are many little things in life that are just meant to be lessons.
been there, done that, dejavu.
sometimes its just better to let go.
because even if he said you were perfect, even if he said that you were his only love,
things change.
and boy can they change fast.

in this fast paced life that we have (well in most cases, unlike mine),
things become fluid.
affection, love, time, knowledge.
everything comes and goes in an instant.

nows like 9 to 1pm. and i'm rattling on after a hard day's battle with the dragon warriors. -_-
but hey, i'm glued to my PS.
rather, its the best distractor i have ever come across.
slim, mean, fighting machine.

anyway, its so unlike me to be up typing at this early an hour,
on a day when i have no school.
seriously. -_-
but i just wanted to thank you guys,
all the people who love me, and encouraged me.
sorry for being a bitch overtime (its a lapsing thing, and sometimes the she-devil comes out),
like when i kept saying i wasnt free to come out,
the truth would be, i was holed up.
in myself, and within myself. (almost like Sidney, who has multiple personality disorder),
at home, mentally, physically...watever.
but my point is,
i'm trying. and all you who noes me noe i'm trying.
kakaka.

anyway, the first bit of my story.
wanted to name it, bitter sea.
after my name, mariel.
sounds really sweet for a title.

when i've sketched out my outline, i'ii blog it.
^^ btw, there are pics on my friendster, go see go see.
its from the dandenong trip where silly people like Celine and benny and david were doing farnie farnie things.
yes. my beloved frens.
SUNDAY AGAIN!