one thing i've learn is that time passes quickly when your having fun.
had the guys over yest, and well well well...they were a handful....
we had honey dew sago dessert (improv hor, so stop being so critical), and cake, which was banana, peanut butter and choco chip ^^.
i love baking now adays. its so therapeutical because just sometimes things in life dont go your way and then you'ii feel all frustrated and all.

Had lunch w a v lovely guy, Alwin.
you noe, you should not feel that way bout yourself and anything you feel is unwarranted.haha...look who is talking.
and seriously seriously,
i'm v sure that although we are alike in that area, and that you might feel the weight more as you age, there is nothing we can do about it but smile and face the world.
hope to see you smile as always cause smiling lights up your face.

then after the guys left, had alone time w my new dear.
^^ hours of entertainment, just not talking but communicating.
its almost like you're having the best conversation without speech.
Really works!

went to Words yest, and got myself a journal-book, that i have to follow for 40 days.
fulfilled for now.
no more whining, that was my new year resolution,
and no more wasted time.
like things would be, if we were fated we would be back together eventually.
for now, lets all just roam and venture out.
even to me, as much as i hate to admit it,
the grass is greener on the other side.
clinging on to you is the last thing i want to do anyway.
never considered myself weak.

kakaka.
it seems such a surreal transition. 6 years.
wow. i've known people who marry in under 2.
but then again,
each experience only makes us grow stronger, and i'm sure thats what he has installed for me.
no more procrastinating. i'm going to pursue my passion.
^^
writin an autobio.
that would prob take ages.

Things to do:
Yum-cha
visit gram
go Docklands again. Beautiful beautiful scenery.
go brighton.
go williamstown.
be satisfied with what i have already - thats aplenty.
prepare myself for the journey back home.
picnic before winter.
internship for sociol. -_- (who ever thought you had to do all the dirty work yourself?)
learn to cook more and more and more.
(would like to take some artsy sculpture classes again and nafa)

-_- plenty to do with my life.
so with what ever i have, i'ii give it one shot, then maybe life wouldnt seem so worthless.
i just need another week or 2 and i'ii recuperate.
out of my system.
out of my life.