closing my eyes and stepping back for now.
Realized i'm OCD. yesh, just like you piggy.
-_- OCD....f***ed up OCD.

in reality,
i cant let go, rather, i must know what exactly is the problem and why that problem exists?
is it my fault?
did i do something wrong?
what did i do?
and the list goes on.

but the truth is.
its not all about me.
in the cruelest sense, now that everything's vapourized and left once again,
after so long a time of torment and waiting,
when everything should be perfect,
you would have to take it all away again.

its not what i have not done,
but what i can never help.
and that is you.
your the flaw in this equation.
but i'm not here to point fingers,
cause as you know me,
i'm just plain old me.

never thinking better then i am,
never standing up for what i should be worth.

but, thats going to change.
maybe an open-relationship for now would be best.
just because we can,
and because you dont want to return.
you sae D likes me,
and in my heart i hope so too,
then maybe i would not be so hung over you.

but then,
its just me.
plain old me.

*with a tear pressed into the side of my face,
a glimpse of the inner world that remains torned and shattered,
a new born smile awakens to the brillance of love,
that has been so long hidden that in my blindness,
i fail to recognize its presence *