"morning mates"...
todae as usual i skipped my hoi class...
hehe. cldnt get my lazy butt out o bed.
not my fault...it was Cl's fault coz i was doin her hoi hw...

lookin forward to fri.
so exciting...
got badminton... going out again...
sat... ktv...
anyway, been a long time since i truly felt good abt myself.
even as i'm typing, i have to resist the impulse of bangin my head against the wall.
wat in the world am i doin?
shldnt i be hittin e book or sack?
damn damn damn...
life shldnt be feelin so forlorn esp when some1 is comin down here in a matter of a week.
still, i dun feel excited...jus a happy glowin feeling, but basically...nothing else.
strange ya?
after all i been looking forward to this visit?
prob coz i'm all over the need to feel adored by someone...to crave for attention.



there seems so many things that preoccupy my mind...
for now, cash is no longer an issue,
coz well, jus take things as it comes.
anyway, i doubt i'ii be out of cash in this mth.
my cupboards are stocked full w food,
and well...
i gotten all i wan, desires and the likes of it.



i swear that my eap teacher hates me.
he picks on me.
and i mean, in a non-pleasant way.
that wayward smile and that duh! look...
sigh, he just wants me to feel inferior to the others in eap.
but ...erhem, my eng isnt too bad...
and i can think fine...
jus that, my grammer and stuff suxz..
but i have no desire to become some professional writer...
and seriously,
what i read in mx, the journalists here arent too big on using BIG words...
and they do not,...and i stress...DO NOT...need to use intro and conclusions...




i reallie and i mean reallie detest english as a written lang...
then again,
i cant pronounce stuff esp when i make no effort to do that.
and i alwaz get laughed at.
poor poor me...
who cares...bite me.
wish time would fly much faster when we actually make it into uni..
and of coz we have to struggle then...
but then again...
we'll be in uni...
sometimes u feel loserly when pple ask u where ur studying...
er...i'm studyin foundation...
"whatz foundation?"
and then u have to launch into this great speech abt wat the heck it is..
then u can see the glint in their eyes...
Hmpz... not even university...



life is such as such.
and you cant do anything.
be afraid.
be very afraid.