nowadays, i'm feeling listless and restless.
where or what do i want to head?

i dislike you with other girls,
just for the sole reason that it annoys me.
as simple as that.
staying late at their place,
hanging out w them.
so. who has double standards?
hate it when you think your the world,
when your nothing but an insignificant dot.

whatever you think you are in my heart at present,
your wrong.
i'm not here anymore. waiting, aimlessly.

had a great time that day at the beach,
belting out hillsongs and chinese pop songs...it felt...comfortable.
building the (mermaid) body on A...
^^ you gerl ah, MAD as a hatter...

realized that, most people think i'm really young. like 19...
well...thats like really young to me. or rather, young enough.
sun tanned. picked shells. spent time dipping in the sea...
relaxing and fun.
times like these where i can smile and laugh as loud as i want.
feeling is good.

but then once night came,
went over to pei T, get din for her.
then had to face Li's mom.
please... it just pushes me away.
maybe your right.
i'm not prepared for this yet.
rather, i dun want to be obligated to be nice anymore.

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yest spent the night unwinding at swenson...thank goodness its 24Hrs...
had a good time just relaxing and gossiping for hrs w my besty.
wanted to go party box...but of cos of cos...cldnt in the end.
as usual. i respect your decisions, just becos it is dangerous there.
yayayaya.... papaya...

you ah...dunno how much i adore you. ^^

getting tired of the bf/gf thingy,
just because i dont want to be yanked here and there anymore.

-_- had it up to here. ( points to head and above).

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i'm no longer on the other end of the line,
hopelessly glancing into space.
never hesitant to msg you,
to tell you my love, my dream, my fantasies.
sick and down,
its time to move on,
just solely because,
your wearing me out.
i don't need you,
just because i can.