if yar dun share your feelings, wat else is there to it?

honesty is the best when its time to be truthful, cause in a relationship thats all that matters.
been in and out of love, rather, infatuated.
but when you know the feeling is true, then maybe thats when your soul mate is there for you.
to feel needy and yet when you think of that person, a smile comes to your face.
to long to be hugged and cuddled by that someone.

wandering through my thoughts aimlessly.
the first smell of perfumed hair when mom brushed pass me, cuddling and cooing at me when i'm sick.
the pot of black chicken soup i made him drink when he was coughing his spleen and lungs out.
the silly quarrel we had over my cooking, when he was the one who misguided me.
the cuddles that would bring a silly smile on my face esp when he whispered i love yous in my ears.
the pooh that is too big for anywhere small and giraffe when i wringe his neck at nite.
my friends who would spend silly time with me talking bout nothing, and doing nothing.
dad's softness when externally he looks so tough.
my brother whose irritatingness kills me, yet his tenderness shocks me sometimes.
my heart that feels like it would burst cause i've just found out something sad, that love comes in many forms and not all origins or comes back to me.
mom's coolness on my forehead when she brushes my hair and nags me for my mess.
my first kiss that made me sure of love.
infatuations that have been roller coaster rides throughout my life that i never carried through because i love only one passionately and devotedly.
fear that consumes me, but now is but my friend, like an alarm system.
waking up and smelling the roses, that i would be good for that particular day.
praying to god when i'm absolutely desperate, but not anymore, cause you reside in me.
being too brazenly stubborn when i know i'm at fault.
being strong because i have to, because even the one you believe will be there, only laughs from one side when you fall.
time spent at the playground just making small talk, holding hands and talking bout nothing but us and us alone.
times when i'm so stressed and worned out, and the thought of you makes me smile, just because your my soul mate.
walks down the beach with him and coincidentally hearing that one song that strikes my heart.
wanting to playa-fool, and yet even more, wanting to love and be here.


"one last time, have you fallen for someone new? "