some people harrass you over the little-least details, making you feel horrid for being the unconventional "slacker" that you are, knowing full well the impact they have on you, just because you care. The word is, you know god damn well, CARE.

These little things gnaw at me, why i have to do something just to make someone else, i care about, get what they want? maybe i should just tell them, but i hate myself for doing that. why i side step issues, so they can live in blissful ignorance. it just kills me knowing full well that as good friends, we shouldnt do things just to spite each other. but then, thats my sensitive side talking. haha...if your reading this and going...well....HMMM.... you cant take me seriously, cos i ramble on and on and on. how private is my blog? even i wonder at times. maybe private enough to involve my life and the friends revolving in my whirlpool, but insightful enough to make me a condemned lacklustre writer of sorts.

today, had the first meeting for theatre group. it was...alittle monkeying around. everyone was repeating each others' name. Luke, mariel, katrine, jenny, pat, tina, mary, nelson, james, alan, kai. Full circle that spun round and round in L's little concorted game. his pretty funky as a director. ^-^ anyhow, we played comedy story telling, devising the 4 main issues dealt in acting : pleading, intrigue, threatening, educating... yadayada... it was interesting enough as a theatre group, though i cant understand how being the mother of the main actress (where in the real show "my fair lady" it was a dad) didnt seem to fit in at all. all i noe was there would be 15 songs inside, and that was all we know for now. it would be a 3 times a week commitment, which...we would have to perform in less then 3 months, an admirable stunt that only the idealistic could even dream of executing with perfect precision... i'm skeptical though i do believe it would be a worthwhile experience...


anyway, dates to look out for . 4th - 2 essays, 10th- 1 more, 11th - my FINAL exams... *ARGH*.

time flies faster if you dont look around.