just shoot me. final year exams are coming, assignments are rolling into place, and...i'm stuck here within the pits of my life. trawling away on the dirtroad of absolution...

just finished the 2nd page of my creative writing notebook that is due anywhere soon. too long too long. i need someone to seek solace with, to whine and cry, but sometimes that person seems so far, never near. but it doesnt matter, cos nothing really does in the end when your standing alone.

went for acting audition yesterday for uni's musical "my fair lady"...bad, i was even more nervous then the ktv singing competition...i could hear my voice wobble. wat an utter failure. bleh.... then after, i returned after going down chinatown, and locked myself in my room with the hot water flask and lots and lots of maggie mee and sweets. i swear...i ate far more then i wld have on a normal night. u dunno how caged i felt. but anyway, they seemed to have a good time. 7.40-1.30 before leaving...weeh...

maybe its time to get a life, like going out more often, bunking at frens' places...what happened to the good ol' trinity times? btw: i'm dying already from the lack of singapore food. after singapore kopitiam closed...my chicken rice is GONE....gone gone gone...and i get constantly plagued with the idea that all my FRIENDS will be going back to eat their fill of singaporean FOOD and i'm here...fighting my desire for chicken rice...it sucks. what kind of loneliness would that be? no friends, no food...

it just all seems so wrong...

please mom...let me go back

i'ii hide in the suitcase if need be...

but pleaseee....

sigh.