thinking of what i truly want to do, torn between my decision to pursuit a combined degree in English and music. well,...the pros and the cons, and now comes the hard part after much deliberation...to follow what NIKE proposes or to juz....be lazy and lead a slack life in university. i dunno really...cant really decide really.

blah...wish things would be a lot simpler like if someone would have already made the decision for you, someone can juz tell you what to do, and yet we wouldnt be happy if that happen, as it is, we would never be satisfied. i dunno really. maybe i should pursuit it, but before i say too much, there is the audition and ...the THEORY....the big T that i've hated all my life....torture, agony are the only words i can think of at this very moment...argh.

in anycase. would i rather have a life where i have no choice and go by providence and destiny...if you believe in that, that is. or rather, i fight for what i believe, regardless of how fickle i am, so that i would never regret in the end? maybe that's the more sound choice that i should make, to fight for myself...hey, i am woman, and hear me roar...