been a dreamy and almost surreal dae. wakin up at 9 den 12 den 2pm...
wasnt feelin this bad when i awoke, infact i was brimmin w energy...
now, my mood's gone down e dumps..



thinkin abt wat L said abt her mooncake msg...
reallie made me think,
wat do i actually wan in life?
to spend every mooncake fest w my family or away frm all e warmth?



right now, e only thing tt comes to my head,
is my prayer tt oct comez quickly,
my exams pass rapidly,
and my grades make e mark.
i admit, i'm not ur worker bee or ur genius.
but, when i put my mind 2 do somethin, minus e common distractors,
i never go too far wrong.
Alas, i seem to suffer frm attention- deficit...
cant concentrate wout feelin whiny n sluggish...




*sobz* watever e case, i wan to spend a moon-cake fest where e moon is round.
L innocently asked, can we see e moon frm here?
n tt set off my train of thoughts.
i am in another ctry, far away frm pple who loved n cared 4 me,
all tt i had built up over my 20 yrs...(erhem,...i noe i old la,...)
reallie, not tt i fear losin my frenz as they have bothered to stay in contact meanin i mean somethin in their hearts...
but e fact tt i wasnt by their side anymore.




life's misery is when one believes tt they can ctrl their destiny but infact cant.
i hold those pple who treat me well, true to my heart.
juz imagine,
how many pple reallie like u 4 who u are?
i am def not anywhere near perfections,
infact i'm an insensitive blog who stumbles thruout my life...
even though i try to perk myself up w happy thoughts tt i am indeed a gd frend,
sometimes i sae things which reallie hurt pple and i dun realize it, tt is reallie tragic.



oh man...i'm in a really sappy mood,
so goes e tone of this blogger...
i'm not questionin life in itself becoz itz been v gd on me,
i'm well-fed, weighin well into the 50s,
well-clothed, many pretty nice clothes to keep me entertained 4 hrs...
n yet, i'm still disgruntin at all e uncertainties in life, one, e idea of bein alone.




i'm not afraid o loneliness reallie, juz sometimes when ur faced w 4 empty walls
(regardless o how well-decorated w pictures n posters 2 hide away e bareness tt makes u feel so empty inside)
...e feelin o bein alone...
Darwin said tt man was meant to fight, "survival o e fittest"...
n yet, how many o us can be considered mentally and physically fit?
for 1 thing, i am none of both...
i'm prob on the road to mental retardation n def, the fats tt hang over my belt...tt cant be hidden v well can it...
wat can i sae...
i am def not perfect.



i rem S bought a poster tt read something abt perfection...
man...i'ii never reach there no matter how hard i try,
coz i'm alwayz caught up in my emotions,
and i try really hard to ignore them coz it alwaz gets me in much trouble..
but, u cant escape e monster in urself rite?




anyway,
i'm keepin myself in a good and cheerie mood.
mayb e next time u see me, i'ii great u w a "good dae mate"...
time to sleep,
my bed beckons me...
everything will be jus fine when i waken.
Muackz to the world...
u are too big for me to fit in, and u are too complex for me to understand.
muackz to e pple who love me...
i noe i'm great!